Well, that sucks!

Well, so the stall is offical.  I've been at the same weight now for 4weeks.  I went to the DR today and they said I have a stricture.  This is what is causing me to throw up. 

Ok, so this is how to describe it.  The connection to my pouch from my intestine is crempted.  So it's not letting the food pass through to get digested.  Well, if it sits in my pouch to long it has to come back up.  That's what it has been doing.

I'm going to be getting it fixed on Tuesday 28th.  I'll have my 'Nut visit on 30th and Blood work same day.  Go figure the Vampire needs blood again.

Alright, work is killing me.  My BUTT hurts...I swear I'm loosing padding back there and sitting all day just don't help. 

Christmas is here and we are going up to Sean's sisters.  We are also having Christmas when the kids come home on the 27th.  I can't wait!  I miss them alot.  I really don't think I can do the holidays with out them but I'm trying.  I cry alot but I love them and I know their father needs some time with them too.

Alright before I start crying again I'm going to go watch some TV.  Night

Holidays???? OH MY!!!!!

So the Holidays are upon us and what comes with them is FOOD.  Food is every where, parties, work, home; Baking, pies cookies, fudge, it's just every where!

I am baking.  I'm baking several cookies and most of them I'm using splenda.  This is to replace the sugar and hoping that it makes it so I can eat some. 

I've figured if I keep saying I CAN'T eat that then it's just going to be more tempting to do so.  So I desided that doing it in moderation it's ok.

On another note....I've been stalled still...it's sucking!  I have not lost a single pound since the start of december.  Here it is week 3 of the stall and I'm just getting upset.  I have also been throwing up more.  I can't seem to keep anything down.  I'm going to tell my Dr when I see him on the 23rd. 

Alright guys...I'm tired and I'm off to bed...

My Month surg-aversary!

Yes that is a real word because I typed it so it is! 

Ok, so my cycle came and it is so not fun....I've always cramped allot on some months but with my stomach cramping and everything else... ugh...

I have started to loose the weight I gained...only 3more pounds to go and I'll be back down to my lowest.

Ok, so what else is going on?  I went back to work!  I HATE IT!  OMG everything is wrong. 

I'll explain this...I was in a special department and didn't get on the phones (i work in a call center)....now they said "well since you were gone we don't need you so you get to go back to the phones."

Yeah that's what I said (what you said).  So now I'm grumpy and sad and trying to not cry too much.  (it's not working).

Alright, I'm off to make my tuna salad...it's what's making me eat....

We move along....but the scale don't!

Well, I've stopped loosing weight...it's normally called a "stall".  It happens to people who have had a surgery for weight loss.  I had expected it to happen, but not this soon. 
I'm 3 weeks in....but I found out that when my cycle I would slow or stop loosing weight...but I didn't expect to GAIN weight.

I gained 7lbs back...It's frustrating to gain when you went to the extreme to loose it!


OK, Christmas is coming and I'm also trying to plan the holidays.  My kids go to their dads for the whole time and I get them back on the 28th at noon. 
What else...let's see we are going to make cookies as gifts for Christmas....what I'm worried about is that there will be hundreds of cookies in my house!  I love tasting food as I cook and bake... um.. can't do that!!!!! 

Alright peoples I'm going to head off to bed.... night night!

Turkey day 2010

Well Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!! I hope your day went well! 

Let's see, I have my whole family over!  I'll go over the list:
My mom, Step dad, both Sisters and 2 nephews.
Sean's Sister, brother in-law and niece
Room mate and her cousin
Adoptive little brother
Sean's Friend Shawn.
This is plus, Me, Sean and my two kids... a grand total of : 17 peoples here to eat!

We had a crap load of food want to see??:

The pies were in the kitchen, there were 6 of them.

OK, so you wonder how does someone who just had this surgery cook and host a Thanksgiving dinner?  I did it easy.  I got up and cooked.  I knew I couldn't eat 90% of what was being served, so I made sure what I could eat tasted great!  I was in charge of the meat and potatoes!  So we had Rosemary and Thyme turkey with honey/brown sugar ham.  And garlic mashed potatoes. 

I ate about 2oz of turkey and 2 oz of ham.  (not at the same time....)And about 6bites of potatoes.  So I had 3bites with each set of meat.  I had about a good 45min between my "plates" and after2 hours I ate a small scoop of my "pudding pie" Sean made for me.
The pie was no sugar added French vanilla pudding and a graham cracker crust made with splenda.  I was quite happy!
Here is all of us:

One person had already left, so there are only 16 in the picture.

We had a great time and after all the fun I went out black Friday shopping to Toys R Us, Walmart, Target and back to walmart!   I got everything I wanted, stuff for my mom too.  So it was a all and all great Thanks giving!!!

We put up our tree now and start this holiday season!

OK, so just to also update you I'm down 25lbs since the surgery!

2 weeks Post op!

Today marks the 2nd week since I started my new life.  You hear alot of people say it's your new life.  The reason is because this is not the easy way out.  This is not a quick fix.  This surgery is just a tool for me to use to loose weight and to become more healthy.  I have to change the way I look at food, how I use food and how I let food into me.

With my two weeks comes me eating solids.  I ate a scrambled egg for breakfast with a little cheese.  This is high protein foods, and how I should be thinking.  I have to read everything about what I'm eatting and what I'm drinking so that I don't get sick.  I had an episode of dumping and I don't want to do that again.

So here is the weight, I know you are all wanting to know.  Since the morning of my surgery I have lost 15lbs!  Plus the weight I lost the two weeks before, so I'm off to a great start!  So that's 22lbs in such a short time!  People are noticing...heck I put on a shirt and it fit right! 

So I'm off to work on Thanksgiving because it's here this year....Enjoy guys!

Post op Contest!!!

A website that I've located that is very VERY informative is hosting a give away!!!!  For Celebrate Vitamin, these are the vitamins I WANT to take but couldn't quite afford yet.  So yeah I am entering and blogging it for extra entry's... can you blame me??? So here is the like for you guys to check her out

the world according to egg face

She's an awesome woman and it's a great blog!

ONE WEEK!!!

So I've made it to 1 week.  How do I feel?  Not all that good.  I still feel tired and in pain.  I think one thing that I was not prepared for (besides the pain) was how much help I needed.

I can say this.  I pooped!  OK, not a big deal to most, but surprise to me.  I was told it would most likely be two weeks before I did it.  So when I did it last night it was a shocker. 

I am ever so happy to have my Fiance Sean!!!! OMG, to not be able to do laundry (shouldn't be a bad thing but it is), cooking dinner is hard because the pots get heavy.  Bending over to pick something up that I dropped, heck wipe my butt!  it hurt!

Life is different.  When I first got home it was all about sleeping.  Now I am trying to get life back to normal.  I only have another week off work (maybe two) and I have Thanksgiving to think about.  My family had already planned to come here and I'm not going to change anything.

I still have my tube and it hurts like heck!!!!!  I go to the Dr. on Wednesday, maybe Tuesday they will take it out.

Food??? OMG FOOOD!

OK, so today was the biggest food day for me so far. 

I made the breakthrough yesterday and drank a whole 4oz of chicken broth that my friend Kim gave me (It's YUMMY). 
Today I had 3 4oz. servings and after the last one I ate a Popsicle, the whole thing!!!    I even started sipping my water about 30minutes after!  I'm proud of myself. 
I still have gas, and it hurts, and when I take off my belly band it hurts more, so I keep it on. 

I can't walk for long periods of time (more then like 10minutes) I get light headed and any pressure on my belly is BAD!! (Loki jumped on me today and it was really really bad!)
I am still struggles with deep breathing, I have a breathing toy that says I need to breath in to the 2000mark and I can't make it to the 1500mark....sad!  So I struggle.

I am starting the protein drinks tomorrow, now that I can drink some and not feel like I'm full of gas I feel like I may be able to drink a shake...so that's good, the protein may give me more energy too.

Well, this was just a quick update b/c I'm tired... so I'm off to bed!

1st day of my life

I had my surgery!!!!!

I woke up in allot of pain and everything was crazy.  I was in and out awake and asleep.  People came to see me but I don't know what was said and how long they were there.  I know I said allot of pain, but it was true.  They had to place my IV in my foot, it was the only place they could find a vain...I swore I would starve a vampire lover?!

OK, so once I was in my room they figured out that my pain meds were not getting into me because of my IV, so they adjusted it and went from there. 

The rule of this surgery is to get up and walk, walk, sip, walk, sip...to heal...well I couldn't!!!! I couldn't walk because of my IV...I would go to the potty and my IV would stop flow, once I was back in bed it would flow again.  So it was a pain in the but...

I did end up staying an extra night and came home on Wednesday at 6pm.  I took my first walk around 2 or 3 once I told them to take the IV out. 

Sipping is hard because I feel full all the time and yet I'm thirsty.

So I got my belly band on and that made a big difference when I went potty, I didn't feel that my insides were to fall out.

OK, some of the down sides.  Coughing hurts like HELL!  You have the the meds all in your lungs and you have to cough them out, you are filled with gas and you can't force it out and when you do you feel nauseated. 

So I'm home, that's a plus.  I sit in my chair and not in bed and I get up and walk around the house and I even get to watch some TV.  I do nap in bed with my Cpap machine on so that I am getting air in when I'm sleeping.  As far as food I drink a couple sips of broth or stock and I'm drinking water with some crystal light in them and lots of ice chips.  I love sonic ice!  I haven't tried anything else yet besides a couple Popsicles I had at the hospital.

Alright guys I'm off to nap now, I'm tired

The day before

So today is day14 of the diet.  I was to loose 14lbs before tomorrow and as of this morning I was at 12!!!!!!!  That's still amazing!

AS I have said Kim is coming over today to take pictures of my before and some measurements....shhhh I don't want to know!

I'm scared and excited.  I have a shelf in the fridge for my cold foods; one in the pantry for my box foods too! 

I've planned some meals for the family and I've had some help cleaning up today to be ready. 

I went shopping yesterday and got some clothes that are a size smaller to have something to try on before I go back to work in a couple weeks... I'll even leave the tags on just in case they are too big!!  **OMG I just said they may be to big!!!!!  WOW!

Alright guys...I'm off to be a good girl for the last day of my diet!!!!

Day 11: Diet

I can now say that Upper GI was GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That chalky stuff they make you drink was gross, the fizzy stuff wasn't to bad.  I had to roll around on the X-ray table and that just made me sick. 

On other notes.... my friend Kim is coming THIS Sunday the 7th.... oops!  So no pictures as of yet.  I will post one for a current picture.

I did the tracker... it may not be the best one, but I'll work on that.

I go see the VAMPIRE today, they were suppose to take my blood on Monday and didn't.  I asked even!!!!!!  So I have to see them today and they will get a rush back on that.  I'm getting excited and I even picked up some clearance shirts in different sizes.  (they were on sale for $3 so couple sizes not to bad)  I am getting the house in order and keeping up on the laundry so I don't have to worry about that when I'm home and not able to lift.

The food is getting easier at times.  The mt. dew habit is no here!!! I'm proud of that.  I have been around people drinking them, I've given ones I had left away (even the 20oz in my desk draw!) and I'm OK with it.  I walk down the isle at the grocery store and I don't even think to grab it, just the crystal light!

I am booked for 11-8-10 at 9am...I have to get to the hospital at 7am, but this is subject to change...we'll find out on Sunday when it's set for!

If you all want to know where I'll be... Baylor Regional Medical Center at Plano!  Dr. Nick Nicholson is my DR!!!

I'll post something on FB that I'm out when I am... I will not get to blog for a bit but will keep you updated!

DAY 7:the diet

Today is Day 7 and as of this morning I've lost 8.1lbs!!!!  I needed to loose 14.8lbs so I still have 6.72lbs to go...!!!!

I have my upper GI tomorrow at 8am.
So what is an upper GI?
Upper gastrointestinal tract radiography, also called an upper GI, is an x-ray examination of the pharynx, esophagus, stomach and first part of the small intestine (also known as the duodenum) that uses a special form of x-ray called fluoroscopy and an orally ingested contrast material called barium.
An x-ray (radiograph) is a noninvasive medical test that helps physicians diagnose and treat medical conditions. Imaging with x-rays involves exposing a part of the body to a small dose of ionizing radiation to produce pictures of the inside of the body. X-rays are the oldest and most frequently used form of medical imaging.
Fluoroscopy makes it possible to see internal organs in motion. When the upper GI tract is coated with barium, the radiologist is able to view and assess the anatomy and function of the esophagus, stomach and duodenum.
An x-ray examination that evaluates only the pharynx and esophagus is called a barium swallow.
In addition to drinking barium, some patients are also given baking-soda crystals (similar to Alka-Seltzer) to further improve the images. This procedure is called an air-contrast or double-contrast upper GI.
Reference website

So I don't get to eat after 7pm except only clear fluids (I'll eat dinner early tonight) and no fluids 3 hours before the surgery...which means I don't get to drink till after the "pictures" are taken.

My friend Kim is coming over today to do my before pictures and measurements these will not be shared unless I want to later, they are kinda scary. 

So lots of people are asking me if I'm excited, I am.  I'm more scared too.  I mean I've been waiting to do this for four years and I am kinda scared that it's here.  I'm planning a wedding and trying to really change my way of thinking and life in general! 

I went grocery shopping last night and picked up a couple of things for the week after surgery.  Some chicken stock, some jello mixes, pudding mixes and even Almond milk to give a try.  I'm drinking about 120oz of water a day which is AMAZING for me.  I have not had any type of caffeine in a week and I'm doing GREAT!  Sean (the Fiance) is a big help and he supports my choices and is pushing to change the whole families lives.  I'm trying to ensure that my kids eat good and stay healthy for as long as possible.  As for my room mate, I can't control that.  It will be up to her to make that choice.  I hope that she chooses to join in and become healthy too.  Maybe seeing me become healthy she will.

Alright guys...I'm off to drink water and clean house!

Day 4:The Diet

So I am on day 4 of the diet and I can say I feel much better!  Day two and three were a little hard, but today is different.  I still haven't had any caffeine since Saturday afternoon when I had my last Mt. Dew. 
Monday at work I had a head ache and I kept taking meds to keep it away and to just keep it to a small one.  Add in the fact that I'm a woman and mother nature has a sick since of humor of timing!  I think it didn't go to badly.  Tuesday was a little better then Monday but I was just TIRED!  I started to fall asleep at my desk and I even got sick to my stomach and ate some crackers.  I felt better once there was something in my stomach and I went on with the diet.  Today is a horse of a different color.  The sky is nice, the weather is great and I feel GOOD!   I woke up and didn't want to get out of bed, but I did and I did it faster then normal.  I then just felt good and was ready to go.  So there was a change!!!  I also weighed my self!!!!!!!  Well it's not much but as of this morning I was down 5.2lbs from Sunday morning.  That's a lot for me and I'm very excited!!! **insert crazy happy dance here!**

Alrigtht, so now what am I doing?
I'm drinking a carnation sugar free instant breakfast in the morning.  It's kinda like chocolate milk in the morning so it's good.  I'm thinking of trying it warm and see if it taste like hot coca.(I'll let you know)
For my snacks I've been eating the special K double chocolate bars.  They are GREAT!  Taste like a candy bar!
For my shakes I've been doing the Slim Fast strawberry ICE COLD.  It's like a strawberry shake.
For dinner so far here are my 3 meals:
Sunday: 5oz chicken breast baked 1cup steamed carrots 1 cup steamed broccoli (NO FATS!)
Monday had the same thing, it was good!
Tuesday: 5oz boneless pork loin chop 11/2 cups steam green beans and carrots mixed.  I was out of veggies so I just didnt' feel like running to the store.

So for dinner tonight I plan on doing some more pork left over from last night...and some veggies too... I'm not that inventive...so what works works!
I'll keep you all updated!

The Diet

So today is the first day of the diet.  If you don't know what the diet is let me help you out. 

1200Calories aday, but it has to be done with some guidelines.
5 "meal replacement" drinks or bars a day.  I found that the "slim fast" high protein is the best for me.  They have 180 calories, 10grams of protein and 23 carbs.  The dietitian didn't tell me anything about carbs but everyone else who has undergone the surgery say to keep them low. The bars are more fun, there is a large choice of flavors, textures and styles.  I picked mine to be low calorie and high protein.  I got some that are150 calories with 10grams of protein. 

After that you can have one meal a day.  Mind you the meal is to be weighed and you have to keep it that way.  I'm trying to find things I like (I'm picky) that falls into the guidelines.  So here is a simple break down

5oz of lean meat.
2 cups of non-starchy veggies
1 serving of a fat

Now mind you they give me a list and the measurements of the fats and it's a short list and SMALL amounts. 
I've decided that the "meal" will be dinner some nights and lunch the other days.  This way we can have a better feeling when at work during "lunch".  There are more tempting things at work then there are at home, even though home is where the food all comes from.

Today it is early afternoon and I've had 550 calories and 33 grams of protein!!!  I am going to be adding a tracker to my side bar when I find one so that you guys can cheer me on as you see the tracker move.

Alright I'm off to attempt to drink more water, did I ever say I HATE WATER!

The date is set!

So I got a lot done today.  I wasn't feeling all that good this morning and so I stayed home.  I am kinda glad I did!  I got a call about the insurance company giving my approval today!!!!!  (posted on another post)

So I went to see Dr. Nick Nicholson today (yes that is his name) and got to talk about my surgery.  The nurses are all so nice and they are so excited for you when you get your approval, even though I have not let it settle in they were so excited for me.

So I am set for my surgery on 11-08-10....the time will be discussed later. I start my "liquid" diet on Sunday....Sean*the fiance* and Steven*his little brother*are going to attempt to do it with me.(see the word attempt!)  I know they want to support me, but I also know they may not want to give up food.

So the diet is kinda like this....the slim fast diet!
You can mix the drinks and bars for 5 a day and eat one meal....5oz's of meat, 2cups non starch veg and 1 fat (gave me list of them).
So it's not a whole lot...less then 1200 calories. 
I trying different types of protein drinks and or meal replacement shakes because I have to drink those allot for the two weeks after also.

So am I excited now?  I'm not sure.  I'm trying but mostly I'm trying to get through the next couple days and see how this diet goes!!!!

Approval needed!

Today I got my insurance approval!  I was shocked because last week I talked to the insurance company and they informed me that they needed additional information and that it would be another 15 days from when they get it before I would know.  So I worked hard and fast to get a visit to the dietitian in; get my PCP Dr to fax in additional information about all 6 of my visits and get it to them ASAP!  Well we got the information faxed in on Monday 10/18/10.
I called to make sure they got it on Thursday and they said yes so I made an appointment with DR. Nick Nicholson (my Dr.) to do a consult. 
This morning at 10:33am they called me back, I figured it was to confirm my scheduled appointment, but it wasn't!!!  The insurance called them this morning and said I was approved!!!!!!

So today I will be seeing Dr. Nick for my PRE-OP not just a consult, setting my date and starting my liquid diet for 2 weeks!!! I hope to have the surgery ASAP so I can be somewhat eating food by Thanksgiving!

Cross your fingers, eyes, toes and hearts for me guys!

I went, I did it!

So I went to the State Fair this weekend (well Monday, but it was a three day weekend!)  I ate food!!!!!  I weighed myself before we left that morning and when I got home...I even lost 2lbs!  I thank the walking for that!

Before we get to the what I ate, let's cover what we did.  First we drove to the park and ride train station at 8AM. Got on the train and was headed out at 8:45am.  We were at the fair gates at 9:40.  I know it sounds like a lot, but with no traffic to fight, no parking spaces to find or loosing our car it was good!

There are lots of acts going on at the fair, free! 

Autumn and me on the train

Autumn on the top of the Jeep climbing wall!

This is (from left to right) Me, Autumn, Zachary and Marie(my friend and room mate!)

Zachary and Autumn in the Green House.  It was so nice inside there and the plants were perfect!

Autumn and Sean on "the cliff hanger"

 

Autumn and Zachary got their faces painted.  Yes Angel wings for the girl and a Dragon for the boy!

The kids with Ronald!

This is the Russian Bar Trio (from Left to right) Marco, Zachary, Christine and Ethan. Zachary got pulled out of the crowd and got to do some dancing and a cartwheel with them!


Now we are off to the food!!!OMG the food was good.  As I've said I never let myself eat the food before so this time I did!  Here are some pictures of what I ate:

This picture is all three of us, we shared!  The Elvis(top) a deep fried Peanut butter and jelly with banana sandwhich.  The bottom Left Deep fried Chocolate.  Bottom Right Deep fried cookie dough.

**This picture is the deep fried frozen Margarita.

I also had 1/2 a corn dog (Zachary didn't want to finish it) and Deep fried Frito Pie (by far the best thing I ate!) 5 Chocolate dipped strawberries (the healthiest thing I ate) I drank lots of water!  I walked all over the place and doubled back on some things so it was a lot of work.

So today was the 15th day for the insurance.  They were suppose to have an anwser for me today, I'll be calling them tomorrow!  Cross fingers, toes, eyes, legs, everything!!!

STATE FAIR!!!

So as I said in my last post I'm going to the State Fair of Texas.  It's a world known event in down town Dallas, not just for the fair, BigTex but mostly for the most creative foods.  I have gone to the fair many times and most of the time I miss out on the food because I am always trying to drop a few pounds.  Even in High School when my marching band marched the Cotton Bowl I made sure I watched what I ate.

This news article in the Dallas Morning News this morning gave me even more inspiration...ARTICLE ...

I agree with it, you should go to the fair and enjoy your self, come home and get back to normal.  It's once a year, and for me it will be the only time I'll let myself eat like this. 

So I'll be going to the Fair on SUNDAY September 25, 2010...anyone in the DFW area is welcome to join me!!!! 

Well, it's off, now Waiting...

So I talked to the Dr.'s office today and they are going to be submitting my documents to the insurance company on Monday(9/20/2010).  So I'm biting my nails waiting to hear back.  She says my insurance company normally takes up to three weeks.  She also said it could be three days!  DAYS can you believe that!

OK, so here is what will happen...I'm going to the state fair next weekend, because I want to make sure I get to have one last hurrah with fried fatty food!  That's right, fried margarita, fried frozen lemonade, fried chocolate, and fried anything else I will be eating!!!  I'll walk too, but I'm eating!  I never eat the fair food, fear of the FAT!  So I figure I'll clear it out of my wishes and eat...walk....eat....walk...watch a show...eat...walk...See a pattern here?  I know I'll never burn those calories off, but dang it...I will NEVER get to do this again!

So it's the waiting game, and it looks like the Earliest I could have the surgery is Oct.7th...then it could also be...Oct.25th.  So no matter what I'll be doing it by November 1st (as long as insurance says YES!)

Cross your fingers, toes, eyes...what ever... Just keep me in your prayers to get my YES...

Well, what the heck is next?

So today I got the confirmation from the shrink..."I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell..." Been singing it all day!  So he submitted the report to Dr. Nick and I confirmed that Dr. V sent over all of my weight checks with him to Dr. Nick too.  So what do I do next?

WAIT!!!!

Yeah that is what I have to do, stinking Wait for the insurance to respond.  Once they respond I'll be going CRAZY!

I mean, I'll have to submit my request for time off with work, starting my "liquid" diet for two weeks and getting life in order to be home for 4 to 6 weeks.

That's allot...but I'll also have to be making sure I take my vitamins, get rid of the Mt. Dew habits.

We will see....I guess the next time I post will be to tell you what's happening....

So...what's next?

Aright, I had my appointment today with the head doc and he said "You seem to have done the research and you seem to have a good support system in place.  Do you understand that this is a permanent life changing event?"
I told him that I do and he understood and agreed that I should be acceptable to the surgery and understand the issues that come with it.

So what do I have to look forward to now?  I have no idea.  Truly I don't quite know what to expect.  I've given everything to my Dr. (by the way his name is Dr. Nick Nicholson) and the shrink will give his info to him tomorrow.

Well, at the final Dr. diet appointment I've gained 3lbs!!!  Well, that is mostly because I'm about to menstruate and I've got some water weight...last time I had my appointment around this time it was 5lbs...so he knew that was likely...so he thinks I lost two pounds and the other three is what shows as water.  I'll take it!  I figured I would have lost more because of all the walking I did in Boston back three weeks ago. (I haven't been watching my diet as much as I should have!)

So I will call Dr. Nick in a couple days and see what I should be doing.  I know it has been said to me that the surgery could be as early as 2 weeks after the last appointment with my DR....and then it could take the insurance company up to 30days to respond from submission.  I've been told that my insurance (Aetna) are quick at responding...we'll see... it's now time for me to do my big changes!

I have a Mt. Dew habit.  I'll admit it!  So my goal is to be off the dew by the surgery date...and drinking more water.  So I'm cutting it back further then I already have (6months ago I was drinking a case*24* in a week, now I'm down to about 10 in seven days).I would like to cut it back to 2 a day...then 1 a day...then none!  GOAL!!!!!!!  So today I've had 2...we will see how it goes.

Alright...I'm off to watch some TV.... Night!

Here is goes

This is the first blog post because tomorrow I go for my last Dr. provided diet appointment.  So how and what is this about?!


I started the weight loss surgery path three or so years ago.  Life happened and things changed.  About a year ago I started it again.  I had to do some research for my insurance to see what was required of me to get them to cover all or most of my surgery.  With this I found I had to do a 6 month Dr.  watched diet.  I also had to speak to a dietitian, physiologist and a surgeon.  OK, so off to the "google" universe I go.  I was checking out the Dr's in my area who do the weight loss surgery and give you the choice of which one you have. 

There are three major types of surgery.  The Lap Band; The Gastric Sleeve; Roux-en-Y gastric bypass.  Each one has it's risk, benefits and procedures.  So I did for information, Dr.s; and start watching what I'm eating and drinking (I have a issue with Mt. Dew).

So I talk to friends and find a couple who have had the different surgeries and different Dr's.  I also talked to my Dr. and asked what I would need to do with him.  It's a lot of work to make life changing choices. 

Alright so April I started going to see my general Dr. once a month, get weighed and talk to him about what was going on.  He was such a great guy and listened to me talk about life and how I was trying to do this!  My boyfriend was helping me by just encouraging me to be strong, same as my kids.  They always said they just want to run with mommy.  (due to my weight and my hip I was unable to do a lot of physical activity with them)
Over the next couple of months I dropped a few pounds here and there; then my Dr. agreed to let me try a medication that was suppose to provide energy and suppress my appetite.  Well I took it for two months, over those two months I gained five pounds then leveled out.  The next month I didn't take it and lost twenty pounds and man was that a BAD month for me (we were moving so eating out was done...ALLOT). 

Now about halfway through my Dr. diet I went to meet with a couple different Dr's for the surgeries.  I picked one and submitted my insurance information with him in the month of June.  In July I went and did my sleep apnea test and started using a machine to sleep at night.  By the month of July things were headed the way they needed to be. 

Now here comes my boyfriend...on my birthday he decided that he could not live with out me and asked me to grow old with him!  Of course this blog would not have the title it does if I hadn't said yes!!!!!!! 

We picked a day over a year away to give us time to save money and to be happy.  Some time after I woke up and realized I was getting married and I can't try on dresses!!!!!!  I am going to have a surgery some time this year and will be loosing weight drastically!!! 

So I am using this blog as an outlet for everything about the wedding and the surgery...my path to loosing weight and getting married!

I'm fixed we think....

Ok, so I had my endoscopic gastric exam done and yes I had the crimp in my lower connection.  They took a small balloon and blew it up and opened up my connection so that my food can pass through easier.  I feel better!  I ate dinner and nothing came back up...WHOOP!!!

I think this will help and I really would like to start loosing weight again.  I mean I've been sitting at the same weight for a month and well that's not fun. 

Yes I went through so much depression lately.  I went and did this big thing in my life to better my children's life and for mine.  I mean it's a big BIG change not a one time thing that will FIX me, but I NEEDED this.  I HAD to do it so that I could have a life for my kids.  So yeah it's a big deal when I don't drop the weight.  I have to see that scale slide down so that I can be reassured that I did the right thing.

Well, on other notes, Christmas is over, my kids are home and life is getting back to normal.  Alright guys I'm off to see if I can rest and recover some more.... this was a long day.